Knowledge is Power
With almost 6 years of knowledge later... here I now stand and smile. From extremely over-exercising and eating as little as possible to fully fuelling my body and exercising out of passionate alone.
In my past Anorexia was the driving force behind my excessive exercise routines and my very restrictive diet. My Anorexia did this because of uncontrollable feelings of fear, guilt, loneliness and low self-esteem. All these unbearable emotions built-up inside me and the only coping mechanism I trusted was to channel all that built-up emotional-energy into my food, exercise and appearance.
Now the driving force behind my balanced exercise and healthy diet is passion. Passion for health, fitness and strength. Passion for balance, connection, and self-care. Passion for dancing, music and movement. Passion for the outdoors, fresh air and walks in the open. Passion for food, my diet, tastes and flavours. Passion for my vegan lifestyle and my future dream as a dancer.
I don't regret those past years of my life, I don't regret any of them, both the ill and the free. After all, I have learnt so much about myself, the importance of my mental health and the crucial key to my happiness. I forgive my Anorexia, I was unaware of how to deal with my thoughts and my feelings, I was fearful and vulnerable. I simply needed help, it wasn't my fault, there is no one to blame, there is only knowledge to gain.